Sometimes I think my priorities are screwed up. Sometimes I think I don't pay enough attention or give enough credit to my lovely partner. He tells me things and I forget them - like when he has school or a meeting and goes to leave and I have to pretend like I know where he's going even though I haven't the faintest. I don't do nice, little things for him like I should. I sometimes see the hope on his face that I will give back what he's trying to give to me and what I'm sure is disappointment when I don't.
I let life kick me in the pants and take away any hopes of magic. I hate this. Guilt sets in. Then I feel worse. How does one turn it all around? I've spent a bunch of time reading this and it has made me feel very, very bad. They have a very sweet relationship and I admire the degree of effort they put into their time together. Maybe I can learn a lesson from them. When did I get so old and tired?
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